Last night, I had a crazy awesome dream. I was faced with my abuser, who tried to convince me that I should give him another chance to really be a father to me. I was able to tell him "NO!" in the dream, and confront him with everything he put me through. It was amazing!!! I can't do this in real life, because he is dead, but it felt so good to no longer be afraid!! Hope maybe this will help someone else.