Hi well I'm just trying to make sense of it all. Life kicks you in the " balls " all the time. My mom has been feeling exhausted more than usual lately. She just had cataract surgery done in both eyes. Took her to her doctor and they told her that your heart is broken. I hear a murmur or defect that be causing your dizziness and your lethargic feeling. He continued by saying there is a condition called widow's heart that when an older woman loses her husband of a lifetime their heart actually breaks. Well we went to the cardiac specialist. She had an echo and holter monitor for a day. So went back for the results. Yes the mitral valve physically is broken. Not so that it is an emergency, but needs to be fixed pretty soon. So now we are waiting for them to set up more scoping procedures the angio and the scope from the carotoid artery. She is always so anxious now she is so that she needs to take medicine to keep her calm while we wait. UGH!!! the waiting is so unbearable. The waiting for the life insurance the waiting for all the paperwork that you had to do for someone who dies is ridiculous.!!!!! Paperwork !!! Waiting!!! it's all unfair this life stuff.. we are stronger going through all this stuff? well I'm a particular badass now at it lol.... I'm hoping she will hang on with me for at least a couple years yet.. If not then I will be totally alone. How depressing and heartbreaking. Oh ya that's right I'm a badass I have to keep reminding myself about that. ;) lol. Well thanks for listening. I'm here for all of you too. Hugs Donna