I have hocd and I am really down. i can't enjoy life any more. I keep getting jelous of my best friend and thinking i fancy her. i am not gay but i do not want to have to spend the rest of my life reminding myself. I need help. As i said, it's getting me down to a point where I can't pick myself back up again and I don't want anything any more. I don't want HOCD, I don't want to live like this and it's taking the fun out of life. I don't even want a boyfriend any more I just want to sit here a stew until i get better but I really can't see it happening :(