ok, ever since I could remember, I've love girls. everything about em. i've only ever got off to straight or lesbian porn. I had a gay experience when i was 13, i felt pretty sick with myself for a few days after but i realized that it was just an experience and that i wasnt attracted to dudes. I'm 16 btw. Any way the last month has been tough, i've had what i think might be hocd. i've had intrusive thoughts, i've been unable to sleep, i've questioned that things that i like or do are gay,i tested my self with porn. It's like a cycle. Theres times when i realize how silly this stuff sounds cause deep down, i'm pretty sure i'm straight. Then theres other times that i'll see something that will trigger thoughts like what if i get married and then suddenly turn gay when im older or what if im gay? I know being gay is being sexually attracted to the same sex and i dont feel that way but i keep continuously playing on this though in my head. I also keep having weird fears of other things like, what if my girlfriend cheats on me with my bestfriend or what if i cheat on my girlfriend with another girl. I keep overthinking little things aswell as having this possible hocd on my mind. I get paranoid that maybe my girlfriend will stop loving me one day. i feel so hopeless and lost i dont know what to do anymore,
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