I’m new to this website so it’s nice to meet you all. I’ve been dealing with what I hope is HOCD for about 5-6 months now. I’m 16 and a girl. I have been diagnosed with anxiety and OCD. So before this began, I always like boys, had crushes on them and everything. I even want to marry one one day. I never ever thought of a girl as more than a friend and never felt attracted to women, only men. One day I was on Instagram and I saw a picture of this girl who I thought was pretty and I had a thought “Do I think she’s pretty because I’m gay?” And that’s how this all started. From there I stated having thoughts like am I attracted to girls? What if I’m a lesbian? And I get sooo much anxiety about it. I honestly could never see myself with a woman. I keep getting thoughts of doing stuff with girls and being with one and I hate it! I cant get these thoughts to go away. My mind keeps telling me I’m attracted to girls, and want to be with one, even though I don’t! I really hope this is just HOCD.. before this I was perfectly fine and happy liking boys, and now I’m just anxious all the time. I try to avoid women cause I feel like I’ll be attracted to them and have a crush on them and turn gay :( I don’t even have a problem with people who are gay or anything, I support it. I just don’t want to be a lesbian/bi/gay or whatever. Also since I’m 16 I’m scared that I could just be in denial even though I don’t want to like women or be with one. I have intrusive thoughts 24/7 and it’s making me depressed. Do you think this is HOCD or could I be in denial? :(