Hi i'm a 27 year old girl and i've had hocd for 10 years. It's been the worst 10 years it's so bad i never go out afraid to talk to same sex and i've wasted so much time with this. All my life i've been into boys liked many of them not all of them liked me and i've never had a bf so it's even harder. When i was 17 i watched a movie about a girl being a lesbian and then out of nowhere this ocd started and i haven't been able to get rid of it since. I get bad responses in that area from the thoughts i've tried psychologists they never helped, medications didn't help, and i feel like i will never be the way i was before this happened. I compare myself to all the other girls i see and my ocd will turn thoughts into me liking them in that way when i know i don't. I heard that cbt is the best way to get over this but i', on a list to see one and i don't know when i'll get appt and i really need help i want to get rid of this