hello EVERYONE! 

Im a 14 year old boy and i have HOCD for over a year. It began with founding a man actor attractive I was Like: "damn he looks good!" And this shocked me and made my HOCD worse! In the first months of HOCD I was attracted to every single Nice looking guy, but Im so far in HOCD now that I dont have that anymore! So I know it was a false attraction, but the thing thats keeps me in my HOCD is that moment where I told you guys, that moment where I found that actor attractive! Its so Scary and that What keeps my HOCD so strong! 

And I bit about my historie: "I was a real girl lover! When I was at the camping, vacation, school i was doing cool things to make myself a cool person for the girls! I also had a lot of crushes When i was 12 and 13... Im 14 now and still Love them, Like i have a hot girl in my class and if she talks to me I feel Like stuttering, butterflies, Im getting it hot, red head ect. 

But my HOCD tells my now I had a crush on that actor, Like WTF! I Will never Kiss a guy or have even *** with him! If I think about gay porn I almost have to puke! I also mastrubated a lot on porn Like 3 times a day... When inwas playing gta 5 and i heard the word stripclub I got a boner... 

guys please tell me Its normal that you find someone of the same sex attractive and that your HOCD makes it feel Like you had a crush or something! 

Thank you so much! 

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