Ocd is an illness. Its a mental thing that switches everything round in your head and, by doing this, rises doubts and suspicions of how you might feel. It is vital you understand this. Its hard because every time you tell yourself this, that little person in your head bites back and says things like 'denial' and 'homophobia'. This is the time to remind yourself ocd is an illness. I used to check myself constantly for 'gay vibes' or 'gay reactions' but i have now realised. Ocd can consume so much of your life if you let it but life is too short. It can drag you down because dwelling on anything makes it worse. Don't give in too that little man in your head. By enjoying life, by being excited and happy, you are pushing ocd out. That is the best thing. Yes you still have ocd but don't let it take over and soon it will fade and this horrible period of your life will be over. Try to see the root of your problems and take it from there. You know you are not gay but don't suffer alone. Ocd is beatable!