Highly Sensitive People HSP Community Group
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Hi friends, perhaps earlier i forgot to introduce myself enough. I am an engineering student doing my undergraduate degree.
Well, i was thrust upon a course i do not like at all. I am striving hard to go through this but unfortunately this is my third trial. The finals are near and i do not know if i'll make it this time.
Anyway, what i like is never taken into consideration and i have to do what i am told especially by my dad. He is of the authoritarian type and i have to abide by whatever he says. Sometimes, i just want to flee but then where to go and what to do.
Earlier, i was in a sports team and this was all my life, it was me. I was told to stop and concentrate on my studies and, believe me, it got worse. Far from concentrating on my studies, i am constantly thinking about my sports and if i was there, how good it would have been. Well, i was actually part of the national badminton team and had to stop training since dad forced me to do so. Now, I am hardly talking to him and i hate whatever i am doing and this is actually the reason why i joined DS. My only problem in life is my father. Being a daughter, i know it is very wrong to criticize and bad mouth your dad, but i cannot stop myself from doing this.
He asked for this in a way. I am constantly thinking about me being a child and being scolded and beaten and i often wonder how can someone do this to a child.
Consequently, I have become very introverted and somewhat scared of what people may think and feel about me. I am not at all confident about myself and always in doubt.
I am not totally intimidated by others but sometimes i feel that i lack that confidence when dealing with situations and people. I would definitely not know how to tackle a situation when i have to confront somebody who'll be abusing me in whatsoever ways.
I only regret that now, i will not be able to get back to my training again and that my dream of being a badminton champion will always be a dream.
Well, i was thrust upon a course i do not like at all. I am striving hard to go through this but unfortunately this is my third trial. The finals are near and i do not know if i'll make it this time.
Anyway, what i like is never taken into consideration and i have to do what i am told especially by my dad. He is of the authoritarian type and i have to abide by whatever he says. Sometimes, i just want to flee but then where to go and what to do.
Earlier, i was in a sports team and this was all my life, it was me. I was told to stop and concentrate on my studies and, believe me, it got worse. Far from concentrating on my studies, i am constantly thinking about my sports and if i was there, how good it would have been. Well, i was actually part of the national badminton team and had to stop training since dad forced me to do so. Now, I am hardly talking to him and i hate whatever i am doing and this is actually the reason why i joined DS. My only problem in life is my father. Being a daughter, i know it is very wrong to criticize and bad mouth your dad, but i cannot stop myself from doing this.
He asked for this in a way. I am constantly thinking about me being a child and being scolded and beaten and i often wonder how can someone do this to a child.
Consequently, I have become very introverted and somewhat scared of what people may think and feel about me. I am not at all confident about myself and always in doubt.
I am not totally intimidated by others but sometimes i feel that i lack that confidence when dealing with situations and people. I would definitely not know how to tackle a situation when i have to confront somebody who'll be abusing me in whatsoever ways.
I only regret that now, i will not be able to get back to my training again and that my dream of being a badminton champion will always be a dream.
if you ever need to chat just let me know ok. hugs to you
xoxo
Take care.
@hebertbr -- well, moving away, can be kind of difficult
first, in the place where i live, it follows the oriental culture and in our ways of doing things, a girl moves away only when she i married or have to go for studies abroad. So, there is no question of "moving away" as such, well there is always the possibility to run away..lol, but due to society and the values that i have got i am not ready to do that. Moreover, i do not have the means to do that.
@barbell--yea, my dad still finances my studies. I have once told him that i wanted to quit and do something of my choice but he strictly disagree: he said that if you were to stay here you should follow the rules of this house,in other words, i have to listen to him.
Anyway, nowadays i am only listening to him, it is up to me whether i am taking it or not. Furthermore, he is firm that i should do as i am told, so no point of arguing or ant discussion whatsoever on this matter.
I have got my finals in a week and when i try to learn those stuffs...can't tell how a torture it is.
I like studies and have always excelled in t, but this is not my field, exactly not. I believe that when you are forced to do something, you can never give your maximum because your heart is not into it as well as mind.
I have tried so many times to make it a pleasure to study the course but alas, each time i find myself telling me, why??
What i like to do, i am not allowed and if i protest...it comes down to heated arguments and even beatings...
Anyway, the arguments also has reduced now, since i am not talking to my dad. talk=only more discussion
so, no talk, no verbal harm.