I am married to a man that is a workaholic, and also has an addiction to pornagraphy. For the past couple of years we have been fightin off and on and I am at the point where I am very angry and resentful of him. Because he works so much and is never here, I feel loney, neglected and unimportant to him. this man even goes to work on his days off, he says that if he doesn't he can get fired! Well I have got to be very stupid to believe that, which I don't. He lies a lot, I have caught him in so many lies its hard to even believe anything he says. I don't trust him because of the porn, and because I am a christian, I have been having a hard time leaving because of my beliefs, although I know that God does not approve of his behavior, I am still confused because I love my husband but I know I am not in love with him. We have talked with a Pastor, and I have even scheduled appointments to go to a counselor, which we didn't keep because he went to work instead. He says he wants to change but there is no action behind his words. I don't have a job so that makes it harder for me to leave. We don't have any kids together but I have kids from a previous relationship. I have even suspect of him cheating on me. Although he deny's it my gut feeling tells me different. I am so confused and emmotionally drained and exhausted of the same thing everyday. I do have friends that I can talk to and do things with and spending time with my kids is what has been helping me. But I long for the husband I married and fell in love with. thanks for listening/reading. any comforting words would be helpful :)
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