I've been in a long distance relationship for 3 years now. The last time I was with him was in April, for 3 months. Basically since I've returned home, he's been fighting and acting crazy with me again. He blames it on the distance. I would fight back and say that I don't want to go there when we aren't even getting along. Long story short, I got sucked in again. We went through the "honeymoon" phase for about a week and that gave me faulse hope. He bought me a ticket to Australia. I'm leaving in 3 weeks. I quit a really good job that I was at for 11 years, for him. I just feel so stupid. I should be breaking up with him, not running to him! I can't stand it that I always grasp that glimmer of hope. He told me before that he would me a computer so I can keep in touch with my friends and family. Now he says that he doesn't see the point because all I'll do is waste my time on silly things like Facebook or whatever. So now when I'm there, I'll have to go to the library computer which will be more difficult to use. I can already predict that when I'm there I will be so upset and alone many times (while he's at work and I'm sitting at home reading a book) and he will yell and fight with me again. But then the one good day we have together on the weekend is supposed to make up for the rest. His past behaviour is the best prediction of his future behaviour. I feel so stupid to know all this and yet I can't let go. I feel like I've gone crazy when it comes to him. I feel like I'm running to him, while he is so happy that he got me to fall for his crap once again.
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