hi guys. how is everyone? had a hard day. my doctor and i talked for an hour and came to the conclusion that i have bipolar disorder. :( with anxiety. it did fit what ive been going thru for a while at different times. i just didnt know after all these years of living with mental illness. now im gonna have this forever. good thing tho is i can treat it and learn to manage it. all new to me, i guess thats why my antidepressants have never worked good enough. so im alright. i just need a break from life. good thing is tho i lost my job. im prolly gonna start a new one in june or july. because i took a test for a direct support professional position for new york state and thats the job i want. i got a perfect score. so now i can take a break hopefully. putting life on hold for now