When I was born, the doctors did the APGAR test to make sure I was healthy, could see, hear, ect. Well they lost that list as far as we know. Anyways, fast forward to when I'm four years old, I had been going to speech therapy for a year or two because my speech was a bit delayed. One day mom tells the speech pathologist that I haven't been responding as quickly as I should be. Like she would say something, and I wouldn't know what she had said at first. The speech pathologist decides to do a hearing test on me and it turns out that I am hard of hearing and needed hearing aids. 

By kindergarten, I have those hearing aids. Everything is a new world to me and it's something I learned to enjoy easily. 

One day, sometime between 3 years old and 6 years old, my friend and I are playing 'sword fight' with each other. One has a stick and one has a light enough pipe. I ended up getting hit hard on the head with the pipe and I believe that is what has caused my severe hearing loss on my right ear.

Everything is fine though, until seventh grade hits. A whole new school merges in with my school because their town only offered pre-k through 6th grade. Everyone who isn't used to seeing a hard of hearing kid who has a deaf-ish accent still starts to make fun of me. My depression hits so hard that by the middle of the year, I'm ready to commit suicide. This depression started when I was ten years old and got increasingly worse as seventh grade year progressed. It didn't get better until ninth grade when I began to view myself differently than how I had. 

Now I'm a senior in my high school and the depression that took over me in seventh grade is back, but for more reasons than previously. A lot of it does still stem from the fact that I can't hear well, even with my hearing aids in. I love the fact that I'm different than everyone else but I hate the fact that this is what makes me different. It gets even worse when I take out my hearing aids and suddenly, everything is muffled and silenced nearly. 

I've had hearing loss my entire life, but it is still a major reason that I highly doubt it when someone hearing likes me, since I'm technically still hearing and I hate myself.