If you are anything like me I imagine that your life is very difficult.  This life is so hard and there are so many judgmental people that may condemn you for who you are without understanding what you had to go through your entire life.  That is why I decided to share my life story with you so that you can see how it is possible for a person like me to love God and have Faith in Him.

If you think that your sin is unforgiveable or you're not good enough for God, I hope my story can comfort you and give you the strength to come to God when you are ready!  let me begin my story and hope it helps you along the way.

I was born in the 1960's and although I am over 50 years old I never really aged.  I am in excellent health, an athletic person and tried to treat my body like a temple so in a way I am aging very gracefully and look very young for my age.  When I was growing up I hope you understand the times we were living in were very volatile.  Our nation was changing very rapidly from a Christian centered nation that helped save the world from World 2 to a New Age movement where the young people of our time mistrusted a government that took us to a war we didn't understand?  Worse yet we had a WaterGate scandal and the anti establishment movement began to take place. Especially since there were social, racial and gender unjustices for the people of our time.

There were 2 groups in our nation that began to form, the people that were over 30 and the people that were under 30.  For the youth alot of us became hippies, we were the age of Aquarius, the flower children, the young generation, the tree huggers that wanted to be enlighten and make change for our world through love.  At least that was the goal I had as a flower child.

My life was very strange and contradictive.  On the one hand I absolutley loved Jesus and God even though I didn't fully understand what God truly was?  All I know is that I loved Him and looked forward to going to bible school every Sunday, I felt close to God.  My parents were much older when they had me and they meant well.  My father was Catholic and my mother was Baptist so I got to see the Christian Religion from 2 perspectives but strangely my parents rarely went to church so I was the one that had to ask if the local church bus could pick me up to take me to church and they allowed me to go.  Those were the most fun times of my life, the volunteers on the bus were young Christian people and we would sing Christian themed songs like: "Joy in my heart" "Jesus loves you this I know" as I rode the bus to church it was heaven for me!

So far my life seems pretty normal but remember our world was changing from Christian to New Age enlightment and my older sister became involved in the occult world.  I love my older sister dearly and I don't blame her for anything that she has done, but for whatever reason she had, she became involved with the New Age movement and became a Witch.  I was 5 years old and she was 13 when I was introduced into the occult and I never thought for one moment what I was doing was wrong.  It just felt so natural and innocent so by night me and my sister were practicing Clairvoyancer, Telekinesis, Telepathy and Necromancy and by day I was in church loving God.

I never thought what I was doing was wrong, but one day my baby teeth became very infected and I had to have emergency surgery to remove my teeth before the abcess killed me.  I was placed on the operating table where I was administered anesthsia but something went wrong and I died on the operating table for several minutes.  While I was dead I still had a consciousness and was still on the operating table but then there were spiritual entities that came to me and it frighten me.  I was only 6 years old and instinctually anything that is taller than me and is approaching me is evil and something I have to run away from.  So these entities were chasing me and they finally caught me and forceably put me back in my body it was scary.  Looking  back at that time though I don't think these entities were evil at all, they wern't trying to take me to Hell, they were just trying to get me back to my body so that I could live.

This story did have a funny moment though in a very twisted way, as I was floating above my body I heard the surgeon tell my mother to take me home and if I didn't wake up in 3 hours to go to the emergency hospital.  I suppose they said that so they could avoid any responsibility in case I died?  Anyway after several hours I regained my consciousness revovered ok, but I developed terrible side effects and I don't know if it was because of my near death experience or me and my sisters involvement in the occult but strange things began to happen to us.

My sister would have out of body experiences to the point of hysteria and she either had to hold on to her mom or to me to come back to Earth.  I began to see all kinds of spiritual entities from people who died and from things that didn't seem human at all.  I actuall bumped into a non human spirit one day and I said to the spirit sorry I bumped into you and then ran away as fast as I could to moma haha!  Those were strange times.

I was the third child of my family and I had 2 older sisters and one younger brother, well when I reached my teens I was a loner and kept away from people it was strange I was like Carrie from a Steven Kings movie haha, I had abilities, I was able to talk to the dead, and I felt like my life was very normal yet I had little contact with people so I was very Niave from understanding what was considered normal to people of my age.  Well my oldest sister was the witch of the family, my second oldest sister was very Christian and married a Christian husbandand I was a witch by night and a Christian by day how strange.  Anyway my 2nd oldest sister husband was military and when they returned to the states they came to my parents house for a few days until their home was readyto move in.  Well on one faithful night my sister's husband barged into my room to tell me that dinner was ready and I was in the middle of an Ouija board session and without looking up I asked him if he wanted to talk to the dead with me?

Oh my God that was the worst thing a person of my background could ask a Christian haha.  Could you imagine his reaction?  I got a very stern lecture about the evils of the occult and how I should not engage into that practice.  I'm sorry I didn't have contact with many people because I was a weird child and people didn't care to have any type of friendship with me so I kept company with the dearly departed and it was the most natural thing in the world for me.  I was a niave child, I just assumed it was normal for people to talk to the dead and work magic but wow was I wrong and that is when I found out that I was different from all of the Chrisitans I ever knew.

From that moment on I was very careful in what I said to the people I talked to, and this was a very strange time in my life.  In part 2 of my testimony to God I'll let you know what happened to me from my teen years all the way up to 2006 when I decided to fully embrace Witchcraft and the amazing people I met.  I hope to continue my story with you soon, God willing, until then thanks for allowing me to share my story with you and hope what I have to share helps you some way in your life as well!  Merry Part and Blessed Be, and of course God Bless you as well! Love you!