I've been a listener
I listened to what I was told
That God was good, life this gift
But I was young and now I grow old

I've seen it all as a blessing
And I've seen it all as a curse
I've looked at life like it would always get better
In honesty I've seen it get worse

I don't have a choice to not believe
For then I am truly alone
So I made a choice to walk and talk to God
From that point I have grown

I have grown to know I have no answers
And very little control of what is to be
Not just in the world abroad
But for the sake of me

So I give my life to the only thing I've found
That really fills my soul
A thing called love, a thing called a connection
The only time that I feel whole

And still I call this confusion
For answers, I will not find
To live in this unknowing
Has made me so mad that
I made myself blind

But now I chose to have eyes opened
I chose to feel what pain
To walk as close as I can to love
Is the only way I can stay sane.