Last August, well really it started well before then. But in August of was hospitalized after suffering from a major depressive episode and diagnosed treatment resistant. I wasn't getting out of bed, eating or basically caring for my self. Didn't answer phone, text or social media. Barely made Dr.appointments. Panic and anxiety attacks were frequent, weeping episodes and irritating. I have always been ignored when people ask me questions that are obvious.

My last option was ECT (electro convulsive therapy). Since then I have had 36 ECT treatments. I still have depressive episode, mainly when physically or emotionally fatigued. During these times, my emotional strength falters and I am flooded with my physical pain followed by my emotional pain. If I don't take clonazepam soon enough I have weeping episodes. I don't deal well answering questions or making decisions no matter how simple or small. I am now at one treatment a month starting next week. Had my meds fine tuned multiple times.

Then two weeks ago I had a Fibro flair. The was sore suffering de bursitis in both elbows, both hips and pre patellar bursitis in my right knee with a meniscus injury in my left knee. I am on so many meds for pain and depression that a normal person would be comatose if they tried to take my meds for a day.

So this is my story or the part I will willing to share right now. I would appreciate any advice, support or whatever you have to offer. Thank you for your time. I wish you all health, laughter and love.

Sincerely, Chris