Feeling Alone Community Group
A place where when you feel alone, you can retreat and perhaps find someone else who is feeling those same feelings, finding solitude and compassion.
I feel alone even when the room is full of people. I dont really know how to shake this feeling. Waiting to see if anyone notices that im really not engaging in the conversations or not really wanting to be there. I am not sure which is worse alone in a room full of people or being alone.
As you can tell this board seems to be an "orphan" with no one posting recently to speak of. No idea what happened but have seen that on a lot of member boards lately.
At any rate, I do understand your question though I have no answer that would help you.
Before the socio & agrophobia got their teeth in me, I found myself in basically the same situation as you describe.
If I didn't approach someone, I was essentially "invisible" and that was even around people I'd known/knew for years.
I hope with all my heart you will find someplace that you could go to, perhaps someplace you've never been where you could meet some new folks and strike up at the least, a brief conversation. Even if you have to be the one that says "hello" first, it would break the ice.
Don't know what kinds of things you enjoy on a personal level but as an example of what I'm referring to, if you enjoy reading, perhaps go to your local library, go to the section with the books you like and maybe run into someone that also likes them and just pleasantly mention, " I see you are interest in ........"
I know though, that's not an easy thing to do if you're not used to making the first move.
I used to prefer just being alone rather than be "invisible" in a group of other people, at least I could enjoy my own company.
With all my heart, I do hope you'll find some way to get out around others and be able to have even short conversations for starters.
I got where I am because I didn't have the courage to do that:(:(
Wishing you the best.....
mc