Yikes!

Have you called the police for domestic abuse? Might be time to take a real stand. My daughter had the same issue. until she called police and made a police report. Nothing worked until he knew without a doubt that she was no longer afraid to live in a woman's shelter without her kids due to the abuse everyone was putting her thru. When he saw the look in her eyes that she didn't care to lose anymore and she was willing to give up and walk away without the kids cause they were instigated to hit her by him. And I tell her in font of him if for any reason. If the abuse comes back do not hesitate to call police, make a report (always have paper work to back up the abuse), and leave. Fight for the kids with legal aid (if need be) and make sure they go to counseling to work on the conditioning your husband has installed into your children. Prayers for you I can only imagine how hard it is I saw my daughter go through it too. Stay strong as long as you want break throw it will happen. Lots of hugs sending good vibes and keeping you in my prayers!

elizadawn, I hope you will take care of your own well-being. Please see your doctor, a counselor--whoever is able to help you. Nobody should be treated in this way and live life this way. There is a beautiful life in store for you but you have to take the first step to claim that beautiful life.

It’s amazing how poor health in a woman results from an abusive situation. It sounds like you’ve endured this suffering for way too long. Is it time to consider your options. If your counselor/therapist does not seem to be helping - and I dont think he/she is judging from the emotional extremities you’ve been driven to - if your counselor doesnt seem to be helping, I would definitely seek out one who specializes in domestic abuse. There is no question in my mind that you are indeed being abused. It’s no wonder you are feeling physically and emotionally the way you do.

When I mentioned options above, I was referring to every human being’s God-given right to exit a situation in which they are being chronically mistreated and disrespected. I took that leap and it was the best thing I ever did for myself, exiting back in the 90’s from a domestic hell-hole.

I believe we are morally obligated to rescue ourselves in this way and it seems to me that life is waiting for you to do just that.

We scapegoats have an unhealthy tolerance for pain and tend to stay in bad situations far too long.

I wish you all the best and hope that you will find the strength to take care of yourself and do right by yourself.

It takes courage and it takes strength but those of us who were weak and run down were able to take the leap and in so doing found new strength in abundance.

Yes I loved my abuser and yes, for this reason, it was heartbreaking to tear myself away, but it had to be done and I’ve never been more grateful that I found it in myself to do it. I had a ‘domestic abuse therapist’ and I belonged to a domestic abuse support group and it was these two things that strengthened me to leave my nightmare behind.

None of us had to leave until we were ready and we all knew and recognized that moment in time when we were suddenly ready !