It can be so overwhelming,having to do everything on your own.Take it one day at a time,set small goals.cleaning out a closet.Just an example.What helps me is a bouquet of bright flowers in my living room.I get them from the supermarket. They last long and are priced very low.Dont forget to take your nerve/depression meds if you have any.All so looking at some cute animal videos or bloopers on the computer help me.Anyway,I hope you feel better!!!

I AM ALSO IN THE SAME SITUATION YOU ARE IN RIGHT NOW. I HAVE HAD OCD AND CLINICAL DEPRESSION FOR 39 YEARS. BUT DURING THE PAST 6 YEARS I HAVE DEVELOPED AN ISOLATION DERESSION. I DO NOT LEAVE MY HOUSE UNLESS I HAVE TO. I WILL NOT EVEN GO TO THE MAIL BOX. THE SMALLEST THING THAT I COULD DO IN THE HOUSE LIKE TAKING THE TRASH OUT SEEMS LIKE A MOUNTAIN TO ME. MY HOUSE HAD BECOME MY SAFE PLACE. BUT WORSE OF ALL WHEN I DO NOT EVEN WHAT TO BE AROUND MY WIFE I WILL GO TO BED AND PUT THE BLANKET OVER MY HEAD. BUT TODAY I HAVE TO GET OUT TO GO TO THE DENTIST AND HAVE A TOOTH PULLED. NOT DREADING THE DENTIST BUT JUST DREADING GETTING OUT OF THE HOUSE,

I dread leaving my house,going to the dentist all ways was like walking the plank to me.Just the smell of a dentist office puts me in a panic.My daughters go like its nothing at all.

IT IS NOT ONLY THE DENTIST BUT IT IS ANYWHERE WHEN I HAVE TO LEAVE THE HOUSE. THIS WENESDAY I HAVE TO GO SEE MY DIABETIC DOC AND ON FRIDAY I GO TO MY FAMILY DOC JUST FOR A CHECKUP. GOING TO WAL MART AND EVEN TO CHURCH I FREEZE UP. IF I CAN GET OUT OF IT MY DEPRESSION REALLY GOES DOWN.

thanks so much for your responses. i was feeling so alone, i allways do even and maybe esspecially in a crowded room. i HAVE TO LEAVE today. my sis is coming to get me and we will go to all stores i need to go to. i wish i didnt have to go. i got up early i guess to worry about leaving. its also raining, i realy have to be carefull, sence the fall, i am very afraid. just thinking about it last night and worrying, i feel l.ike im getting sick, know im not. so ill be w/ sis .leaving at 2.30 today. will get back on later tonight and let everyone know how it went if you all dont mind. thanks so much again. i dont feel so alone now. yes it does feel like walking the plank. i need to make here my safe place, too soon to feel it yet. my sis house is my safe place. i have to cut the cord allready. i USED TO FEEL SAFE HERE. and i also have troubles around my fam and closest people, anxiaty about being around ANYONE, ok, rambling. so oh hope you are able to see dentist. havnt got my mail sence home. make son do it. ok, well again THANKS SO MUCH. IF ANYONE NEEDS TO VENT OR ANYTHING, IM A GOOD LISTENER. i dont chat, too stressfull, but you can message me or etc. not good at ending theses, could go on forever, so i will just say THE END allready.xxoo

ok, just got back to my place. my sis came and got me she was very late and by the time she goyt here, i was REALY FREAKING. so i take my XANEX when she gets here. had to forse feed myself 2 pcs brd so i didnt throw up. we went to b.f. house,i was TOTALLY CONFUSED AND REVED UP THE WHOLE TIME I WAS GONE. it wasnt as bad cause w/ sis, thats who i lived w/ for all those months after the surgury and all the time. i cling to her. still trying to get used t being home. SO GLAD TO BE BACK, so i DID IT. I DIDNT LIKE IT BUT AM SOOOO GLAD I DID. THANKS FOR ALL THE SUPPORT. ok, just an update, have to take meds BEFORE I GO OUT, MY BAD......

Great job,you one that round.I am going to the super market today.I hate that place but I like to eat,lol.I usualy get such a panic attack in there I wind up leaving towards the end of the list if I have it all or not.I just say to who ever Im with if anyone.Lets go I got to get out of this place.Once I get my total at the register I think wish I left a few isles sooner,we eat to much.

well guess what I DID IT AGAIN. ATCUALLY DROVE MY OWN CAR BY MYSELF TODAY. ya i didnt have any reason or i couldnt come up w/ a good enough one. i have had my car here for a week, so very scared to drive, allways have been but i havnt drove in over 6 mons, tried to get anyone to go w/ me my first time, BUT NO!!!!!! so i get up all my nerve i ever had. i got up SO EARLY cause i knew i was going to have to drive, worried about it ALL NIGHT, sleeping pills didnt work. so anyway, i made a mistake today and i knew it, i dont know why i try but i didnt take my meds early enough, so when i got in the car, i was so revved up i was shacking and sweating, so i go to aunts, she is very sick, had to get her some food, so i went there, and went to store, im such a scardy cat, i turn the music up LOAD i fegurs they can here me comming, anyway, rambling, didnt get done half the things i wanted to , forgot son was waiting for me. does anyone else have trouble remembering things and staying on track when going out? i just came back home. should have done moore but BABY STEPS I GUESS. thanks for all the support, dont knwo if i could or would have done it w/out you guys YOU REALY ARE ALL THE BEST. I THANK YOU ALL AND IF I CAN BE OF ANY HELP TO YOU, FEEL FREE TO LET ME KNOW. THANKS AGAIN. i dont feel so alone now.xxoo

congratulations on driving by yourself what a huge feat you've accomplished...you are making terrific strides...keep up the good work

I have been dealing with something very simular..........and since joining this site and putting some effort into it ( although i have been pushing myself for quite some time to get out of the rut-bed-) I have made a really good start this weekend.
But, for the past couple of months I spend the majority of my free time in bed watching tv,. i used to like to do some many things and had surgies a few years back that dont allow me to do the things i used to do or things i need to do sometimes it sucks.
and i just hybernate to my bed............i get up in time to get ready for work, go to work where i work alone customers come and go but that is really the extent of my daily contact with anyone, i come home and get in the bed sometimes i play a wii game or so some yoga.........but i mostly i get in the bed watch tv till real late or go to sleep and get up and start all over again.
So my suggestion to you is set a goal and take it one step at a time
maybe if you haven't first condition your mind to want to do something different
and take baby steps if you have too- maybe go visit that sister you miss so much
or making just one plan and woring towards that one give yourself a target date if u think that will help
or just do it whichever is best for you
i hope that helps
peace love and joy

THANKS SO MUCH for all your kind words of encouragement. DOES ANYONE HAVE ANY ADVICE ON THIS. my uncle passed away on sunday uncle by marriage, but he was a great guy, i well miss him. but this means i HAVE TO GO TO FUNERAL AND THE WAKE, of course my stupid b.f. wont be at funeral. just the wake. im having so much anxiaty. im going to be seing people i NEVER SEE and they are all going to want to talk to me. im scared. any suggestioms would be so APPRECIATED thanks so very much. i can relait to everyone on here. its just so hard. and i cant be in there listening to my ipod, WHAAAT?