Hello, I'm shorty.  I have EDD and I've known something was wrong with me for years.  I'm 19 and this current year (2017) I found out what was wrong with me.  I've never had a girlfriend and I'm still a virgin.  I've been coping with this disorder through music (I now create my own through a phone app).  I've noticed recently that music isn't enough to help me.  I found out that people with EDD can be at risk of premature death (I can't kill myself so I guess I'd be ok with that since I'm going to be alone and die alone) and I've been having pains in the place of my heart.  I understand why something is wrong with me now since I'm more aware, but it doesn't make the situation better knowing I ultimately can't do anything without someone to love.  I've also identified what I'd want in a person which also doesn't help I guess because people like "playing games" when I just want to know if you can love me and vis versa.  My body isn't use to the human touch from the fact that my manage touched me on the shoulder and I almost became erect (my life...).  I've also begun to have wrose memory.  People say it's because of work or having too much to do but I didn't have any work until now and I've been like this since high school.  High school (for me anyway) was very simple, I just didnt want to do anything.  Life is also simple and because of that it makes me more sad and irritated that I can't avoid it.  I hate the job I'm at because I can't cope with the EDD and I also can't tell what's real or not because of how fucked up this disorder made me.  I truly wish I could harm myself, but I'm too logical to do something that stupid.  I'm just awaiting death at this point knowing I won't ever be able to find that person to help me overcome this fucked up disorder.  Fuck life dude...  I'm confident there's more I could share but 1 - nobody will probably read this until a year passes and 2 - I forgot/don't know what I'd put.  Anyway, I started and if you decide to join, I'll read your post no matter how long.  Thanks for reading if you did and if you want to talk more personally, I can give you my snapchat or we can just dm each other every now and then on this.