Hello,

My husband is in the downside of his cycle again.  And it hurts.  He knows just what to say to destroy me.  I wish I could leave.  I seriously have tried finding women’s shelters for me and my son.  But just ended up in a bunch of scam sites that asked for my info then redirected me to another useless site that asked for my info.  Now I’m getting tons of junk mail everyday.  It really sucks that I try to reach out for help because I have nobody and I just get scammed into giving out my email.  It’s like, ok this person is so desperate that they are willing to live in a homeless shelter, lets take advantage. I really don’t know what to do anymore.  I was trying to stay long enough to finish school, so I can support myself and my son.  But, the abuse is getting in the way of my studies.  I can’t concentrate.  My only friend that was there for me moved away to another city.  And the only family I have are also abusers.  I feel so trapped.  I am trying to be strong and not let it affect me.  But it does.  I don’t know how to cut it off.  I try, but he always finds a way to suck me back in.  Just like he knows what to say to destroy me.  He knows what to say to build me back up so he can tear me down again.  I’m so lost.  So lonely.  And so exhausted.  I feel like I’m all out of options.