My daughter graduates from high school in June. I've been waiting for 4 years. My husband and I have raised 4 kids together and I have been struggling to remember happy moments with him but he ruined every moment that should have been joyful. Money or no money I am leaving come July. My mental health is in jeopardy. I hope I can hold on till then. I truely hate myself. I constantly worry about what he will say about my next mistakes. How long he will lecture, how long will it take me to recover. I don't know how to love him any more and I hate myself. I'm glad this group is here. I need support.