Hey guys. I've always had a weird relationship with food. I always was a skinny/average girl but for as long as i remember I eat a lot, i eat up to the point where I know im no longer hungry but i keep looking for snacks and fats. I force myself to eat fattening things and then i feel horrible about it, only for me to cheer myself up with more food. Then I go into a spiral and I restrict myself so hard, i get really strict with intermittent fasting, and I thought I was just trying to be more healthy but it wasn't until this week that i realized i have a problem. I was standing in the kitchen fighting an urge to eat during my fast, and I slapped my own face so that I wouldn't. I had never experienced something like that. I literally slapped my face, hard. I did that so that I can punish myself for wanting to eat. I dont know what to do and I feel like i cant talk to anyone i know about this. I'm so ashamed of myself, not just for slapping myself, but for not having any control when it comes to food.