Dysthymic disorder Community Group
Sadness. It is real. If you have Dysthymia, it's a constant state of being. . . It never leaves you. I'd really like to see what reality is like, you know, check out how it feels to NOT be sad all the freaking time. . . This is just mean. I mean come on, somebody . . . God, throw me a bone! I'm a cool guy, I do good things. OK, , , enough of this shit, it...
I was diagnosed about 6 months ago while in basic training for the Navy. Along with the Dysthymia, they informed me that I show signs of borderline personality disorder. They immediately sent me home. Upon arriving home, I was offered a place to stay with an old friend of mine while I re-enrolled in college and went job hunting. I was treated rather cruelly while staying with this friend and decide to spend the rest of my summer vacation sleeping at my brothers house. Now, here it is, 6 months down the road. I'm back in college and living in campus housing. I live with my little sister, my girlfriend and 4 other girls. I can't shake the feeling of constant sadness. I can't break away from the thought that I was better off not knowing about my Dysthymia. I feel I was better off living behind fake smiles and forced laughs. Most days, I just don't want to fight. I just want to give up. I don't know who I am anymore and I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I thought I had it all under control. Then, with one little slip up, all my demons I thought I had buried long ago have turned up. I just don't know what to do to get rid of this constant feeling of sadness. I want my life back.
I'm StillBill, founder and fellow dysthemiam.
I'm not a doctor, I'm just a guy who was diagnosed late in life, and not even directly to me but . . . whatever . . .For years, I thought I was all alone , , , until I decided to start this group, since 2008, 79 people have joined . . . I suspect, just to know that there's a place where everyone here is suffering the some un kind freaking sadness - on a daily basis.
There's something you need to know; not many people who've joined the group are open to talking about it,
But you never know, it is what it is.
I read your post and for me, knowing I had this disorder put a lot of things in perspective; One: knowledge is power..... and I read and posted an article on dysthymia for the group to look at and it helped some members, they said it helped them better understand it and 'Brand it" for what it is.
So I "choose" to deal with it, in some fashion. Doing nothing begets nothing.
So welcome to the group, if you want to chat sometime or whatever - I'm almost here . . . (I kid).
bye for now, don't be sad, Satan wins if you're sad.
StillBill
The smartest guy on the planet. (again, I kid)
I cannot shake it. I can, however, make the best of it, and the conscious effort and commitment to beating it have certainly helped.