Dysthymic disorder Community Group
Sadness. It is real. If you have Dysthymia, it's a constant state of being. . . It never leaves you. I'd really like to see what reality is like, you know, check out how it feels to NOT be sad all the freaking time. . . This is just mean. I mean come on, somebody . . . God, throw me a bone! I'm a cool guy, I do good things. OK, , , enough of this shit, it...
I'm sitting here , in a semi -comfortable swivel chair and rocking gently back and forth, in a pleasant mood for the most part
- been slowly coming out of a not happy emotional adventure and I'm a lot better now . .
and a lot worse for having done it. (I don't know what that means )
But that's beside the point, well, it's like real close to it actually;
not the rocking part; it's more like - - - does my being here
have any worth?
Does yourbeing have . . . whatever . . /
I don't know how to tell. . . .
-Anyone. . . ANY IDEA'S?
I know it could be helpful, I'm freaking full of helpful. . . . but . . . no takers, save 3 or5 folks with just as much or more desire to reach out and care for some - or one of you.
Yes You. . . you joined, . . why?
WHY?
you are all in pain, mine
comes and goes
but never leaves
I'm freaking afraid when I get happy
what's with that?
- some sort of repetivisationising complex inherent in the repetiivisticically disorder
often associated with - ( the straight from hell dead dark sadistic black suckhole stinking rotting sadistic) dysthymic born castaways'
-
-but I digress,
I do have an issue:
why aren't we all communicating? (I am)
Is there some reason for it? (I'm ok with this one too)
is it fear, shyness (almost) anxiety, how about ADD+PTSD+hermorfididelized leaning tendicies often found in people like me.
er go - you. . . or both?
is it emotionally just way too out there to even try ? (-been there)
-maybe some of you are too paranoid (me sometimes) to join in this non-threatening city. . . . or , like me, debilitating periods of energy, anywhere, anytime?
Really, I wish I new how reach out and be friends with you.
that's all, nothing else, no other anything.
You know, I need friends too, it's alive and well in this group
so you should type something,
digitally visit, you know . . . the comfort zone is very "comfortable".
- and I'm the brightest man on earth except for the fact that no one knows it yet.
OK bye then, sincerly,
StillBill
Your founder and seriously overmedicated Friend
- oh, I'd like some HELP ? ! ¡
- been slowly coming out of a not happy emotional adventure and I'm a lot better now . .
and a lot worse for having done it. (I don't know what that means )
But that's beside the point, well, it's like real close to it actually;
not the rocking part; it's more like - - - does my being here
have any worth?
Does yourbeing have . . . whatever . . /
I don't know how to tell. . . .
-Anyone. . . ANY IDEA'S?
I know it could be helpful, I'm freaking full of helpful. . . . but . . . no takers, save 3 or5 folks with just as much or more desire to reach out and care for some - or one of you.
Yes You. . . you joined, . . why?
WHY?
you are all in pain, mine
comes and goes
but never leaves
I'm freaking afraid when I get happy
what's with that?
- some sort of repetivisationising complex inherent in the repetiivisticically disorder
often associated with - ( the straight from hell dead dark sadistic black suckhole stinking rotting sadistic) dysthymic born castaways'
-
-but I digress,
I do have an issue:
why aren't we all communicating? (I am)
Is there some reason for it? (I'm ok with this one too)
is it fear, shyness (almost) anxiety, how about ADD+PTSD+hermorfididelized leaning tendicies often found in people like me.
er go - you. . . or both?
is it emotionally just way too out there to even try ? (-been there)
-maybe some of you are too paranoid (me sometimes) to join in this non-threatening city. . . . or , like me, debilitating periods of energy, anywhere, anytime?
Really, I wish I new how reach out and be friends with you.
that's all, nothing else, no other anything.
You know, I need friends too, it's alive and well in this group
so you should type something,
digitally visit, you know . . . the comfort zone is very "comfortable".
- and I'm the brightest man on earth except for the fact that no one knows it yet.
OK bye then, sincerly,
StillBill
Your founder and seriously overmedicated Friend
- oh, I'd like some HELP ? ! ¡
My questions to anyone in this group willing to answer it is, "What do you expect out of a group of this nature? What do you want from your fellow dysthymics? What needs to happen in order to turn this list into a nuturing web-based environment for you?"
As far as what I would expect from this group, I know people have tried (unsuccessfully) to star threads in the past, but I do appreciate seeing the questions, and the repsonses to what is going on in your lives. Maybe because I can identify at least on some level with most of what is said. Then I can at least take a little wisdom and comfort from responses/advice...
After being diagnosed with this problem I looked it up online. Strange how easy it is to get instant information anytime you want it. Well from what I found the Dr. is right. I don't think the medicine is helping either. Of course I have only been taking it for a week but I think it is making me feel worse. I have two children and the main reason I even went to seek treatment is because of them. I feel a duty to do what I can to make their lives better and I think that my behavior is / has affected them.
It is hard to reach out to others with this as I have become of a introverted person after having this like what seems forever. It is nice to know our little group actually has a site as this seems to be different than the major depression that is out there for a lot of people. I don't have fun at all anymore. I want out of this as I see other people able to go and do things and I envy them having a good time.
I have a very hard time when the rare moment would rear its ugly head and something good would come my way. I was always waiting for the other shoe to drop on me. I have come to hate my birthday as I am afraid someone will do something really nasty and throw a stinking party. I know that may seem strange but every moment of a bunch of people in my house is like torture. I will force myself to be nice but I will be hating every minute of it.
Well just my input. Seems like it turned into a novel.
Jag
I'm StillBill and I founded this group for people loke you, so that maybe in some way you can know that you're not alone and there's a lot of us out there . . and in here . . that know what you're going through and man, it isn't fun at all.
But if nothing , you have friends here now, and a lot of us want to stand with you and make life a little bit better . . . at least, that's the plan . . but we're so screwed up, who knows what the hell is around the corner . . . I have a better clue than I used to . . . . so . . . that's not a bad thing . . .
OK then, bye for now, stop by anytime if you want and we can chat or something.
later,
StillBill
Steve