wow you nailed it. I want to reach out but even if I do I find myself sitting in silence. I want to talk but have nothing to say. I'm a great listener but somthing gets in the way, I guess they feel like the friendship is onesided, slightly askewed. It happens in RL too, I don't have friends and don't keep them when I do. I've never understood why. here I never had but 2 or 3 names on my friends list, I've made it a personal goal to add more of late. I keep tabs on them daily but don't always know what to say to thier journals or when I see them on, so I sit in silence, wanting to talk but unable to reach out, then I feel abandoned when they don't...messed up I know. I guess if I weren't I wouldn't be here. Well thanks for starting this anyway. Still unsure what to share as a new topic.

I have a hard time reaching out but I still try. It seems that I try to keep friendships, by staying in touch, but I dont always receive the same respect. Then when that happens, I always question myself. Wondering what is wrong with me? I have found myself reaching out to people on this site more, and not just here, others I have met on the internet. Its easier for me to do this on the internet than in person cause I do have social anxiety. I get tongue tied when around others in person. I have been trying to smile to others more and make small talk when I meet them in person but most days, it is really hard for me to do this. So I dont do it as much as I should. I am an extremely nice person and very caring, but unless you are close to me, people wouldnt know that. I have a hard time opening up to others cause of what I have been taught by my family. I keep trying to change and hope one day I will make it. Tor share whatever is in your heart or your mind. Even if it is just to vent or to tell us more about yourself. I am always around the computer, I have it on everyday, at some point and I check Daily Strength everyday as well. I would be more than happy to get to know you better and to listen if you need that. I am a good listener and I do that pretty well. So if you need a new friend, I would like that as well!

Hey TOR and BETH,
This is exactly what I was hoping would happen.
We're going to make a community where everyone can come to and not be afraid of any damn thing in the world . . because here, friendship is our defense.
Faith and trust is our banner.
No one will ever be alone.
Not here, Promise!

This is how I was since my life began! Always I can remember the feeling of standing on the outside and even childhood photos show me as the pale rather sad looking child at the back. The drug I am on now though has made me really sociable and has really brought me out of my shell in an unforced sort of way. I am really enjoying connecting with people and being admired for my personality by people other than close friends and family. Amazing what can lurk beneath the surface that just needs teasing out thru the right treatment.

i feel the same. im not really a shy person, and i like socialising , sometimes i dont say anything tho becuase i actually dont have anything to say. i have relenting standards. hi expectations and i can never kill them. i feel ashamed becuase of my age. i am single and i feel its weird to be this way at my age. i dont fit in and i feel ive missed the boat. i always used to have relationships, but now im 31 and i just dont know whats happening to me anymore. ive been single for almost 4 yrs. i hate it. i hate this conservative town where i live. cos of dperession etc i cant move.

Hey I am with you on the feeling like you dont fit in. I have been married for 15 years and my husband and I dont have children. I always get looked at like I am a freak cause I am in a stable marriage and dont have kids. I am so sick of explaining to others why we dont have kids. It is none of their damn business anyways. It isnt weird to be single at 31 and I just hope if you want a relationship that you find good relationship to be in. If you dont, that is ok too. However you feel comfortable living your life. Our lives are up to each one of us to live, not society telling us how we should live. I am very sorry society is making you feel like a freak, but you are not a freak and I always say love happens when you least expect it too. It sure did for me. I never thought I would get married cause of the way I have always felt about myself. I believe there are too many people in this world for anyone to be alone, unless they choose to be alone, it just sucks having to wait and find that person you should be with. You will though, I have complete faith you will!

I always feel like I don't fit in. I always feel socially awkward and ugly and weird. I like people, but I sometimes blow people off, even when I like them. In some ways I'm antisocial.