I can't take it anymore. For many reasons I now have 24/7 aides. One comes at 8:00 am leaves at 8:00 pm then another comes 8:00pm and leaves at 8:00 am...Every day it's the changing of the guards feeling. My days blur together and where I used to look forward to Fridays I don't have a weekend anymore. Because of health issures, my boyfriend cannot lift (transfer me) onto my wheelchair as I cannot walk.  He lives around the bend here so still comes over to eat dinner with me or watch the baseball game or whatever on TV then leaves. I hate my life and just want to die so not a burden to anyone, anymore. Even my kids who both live 20 minutes away from me don't even bother. My daughter (36) calls every day but my son (33) never calls. I cry all the time and today even stayed in my pajamas as don't even care about my appearance anymore. After breakfast, I will brush my teeth (won't bother with makeup or fixing hair) and just go back to bed lying on my other side so don't get a bed sore. I'm paralized on left side due to MS affecting my spine and 3 mini strokes. I just want to be put away!

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