When life handed me lemons, I made lemon aide! Maybe your higher power is telling you this is'nt the time for you to work, or leave your parent's house. Of course, we all want to be independent. But, when we have mental health issues, sometimes, it takes us longer to get our life together than most people. Get yourself help, see a therapist. Get on meds. Zoloft really helped me. My quality of life is so much better now. This is your depression talking, not you. I have been coping with six different disorders for 12 years now. I never gave up! If I ever had given up, I would be dead. But, I am alive, and so are you. Feel better soon. Read books, self help ones were good for me, find a hobby, join a class. volunteer somewhere, and yes, prayer does really help too! You are not alone! I am on disability because of my disorders, which one is agrophobia. Despite the challenges that I face just to get out of my house, I work a little part time job. I am an artist. I volunteer at a senior center, as an art teacher, and I started a free art program for the children in my neighborhood. No. I never gave up on life, I just adapted it here and there as needed! Don't keep focusing on what you don't have, but what you do have. A safe place to live, even if it's with your parents right now, it's not forever. And you are lucky you have parents who support you like that, mine never would. And, you have a daughter that loves you. I have been estranged from my children for 22 years now. I was so beaten down, I thought I would never be able to get up again, but I did, and so can you! There has to come a time when we have to put on our big girl pants on, and get on with our life...Move on, and find ourselves happiness. You are not alone.! I am here if you want to talk. Hugs! Angel Grace

I'm sorry you are facing such difficult struggles and hope you can overcome and continue to live your life in a positive way. Sometimes depression makes people see things differently and with time and support of the people here, you may find a way to take baby steps towards your future. Do whatever is necessary now and things will begin to happen. Maybe you can move in with your daughter at a later time....when you find a new job. I have found that looking on the positive side of things helps me to get through problems that are holding me back. Please continue to post and let us know how things are progressing. We care and are here for support and encouragement. Blessings to you and I hope you have brighter tomorrows. Hugs xxxx Bonnie

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I wish you love.
When you're down
I wish you joy
When you're troubled
I wish you peace
When things are complicated
I wish you simple beauty
When things look empty
I wish you hope.
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Hi Aditi 1974,

I think I have a clue here. I have lost everything and had to live with (not nice) family members. The divorce, lost of my career that I spent years building, my home and more. It's been one hit after another and the depression came with such devastating force. Name it, there's a chance I have had it hit me, mostly at the wrong time, just when I was starting to stand up again.

I looked at your profile and seen alot of good things about you that you have that you can rebuild on. Your likes and interests that shows positives about who you are. I see them and see a person who does have what it takes to rebuild a new life. It won't be easy or without moments of blows hitting you, but it can be done. Time and effort and willingness not to give up even when you get hit with one thing after the other. You seem to have the qualities left that allow you to rebuild a new life.

What I did was therapy, church, classes, groups, new friendships and supporters, volunteering work, self help books, so on. Anything I thought might help me emotionally or physically, I gave it a shot. Not all turned out to work, but most has and what has, is what has been keeping me going and rebuilding my new life. I have these really yukkie moments still, but just moments, not days or weeks anymore like I use to. Basically, I refuse to fall and stay down so I got very proactive. It has helped alot.

I am not sure if I am sharing anything with you that can help, but I got a clue to some of what you are dealing with and wanted to let you know that you are not out of succeeding. You have what it takes and taking what you have already into a proactive mode, I do see a person rebuilding a new life. Just don't let the blows knock you down where you stay down. Very best to you.

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Lots of love, hugs, strength and support to you and your daughter! Stay strong and know we are here for you! If you need someone to talk to I am here!

I understand what you are going through, because I've been there in the past, and is right back there again. I fully agree with Phoenix310, you will get up again and get through this setback also! I pray that God has a much better job for you and a much better apartment for you and your daughter in the future!! Meanwhile, use the time to strengthen your inner self, and also spend uplifting quality time with your daughter. Prepare yourself for the breakthrough that is coming your way!