I am a mom of a 7 year old step child and a 3 month old. I have had many life changes. I became a christian a couple of years ago any many people turned on me because I didn't meet their standards of what they thought that meant. I use to go out and party before I got with my boyfriend 2 years ago, I don't work any more because its easier for my boyfriend to make money and me watch the kids. I do go to school but i have all my classes in one day. I don't have friends anymore, i have had family turn their back on me because I am not with who they think I should be or do what they think I should be doing. I recently have had anxiety attacks about going to crowd and places with a lot of people. I can't even go to church on Sunday. I feel sad a lot, not suicidal but just not happy. I have tried so many thing and nothing is working. I fake it a lot to make my boyfriend and his family not worry but I sometimes just want to burst into tears. Its made me very unfocused. I just want to be a good mom I am not sure how being depressed is going to allow me to. I am not sure if I am going through something or if this is just a phase.