I may not be in the right group, but I am feeling like I don't want to be here anymore. I am lonly and the feeling of rejection is overpowering me. I have been out of work for about a year and I finally did get a job in Feb and I was just laid off. I doubt if I get unemployment because of the length of time but I am trying to get it. Sometimes I feel like I can't move and just the sight of my computer makes me sick... I have no support.. My family doesn't understand what I am going through. They know I want to die, but I still don't hear from them. I am alone everyday and I can't take much more of this. I had an interview yesterday. I am older, so that doesn't help much. I try to look at it as an open door leading to better things, or a lesson that needs to be learned, but it is getting where that doesn't make much sense. I don't understand why I can't be happy or have relationships with people. I don't drink, smoke or do drugs and I am friendly and try to get to know people. I am quiet, but I still show interest and I have a good sense of humor. I can't afford therapy and I have tried churches, but they reject me also. I have made out my will so it will be easier on my family that way. I don't know where to go. This holiday week-end is going to be horrible. I will be alone. Hopefully it will rain. Please help me..............