From 1993 to 2018, hell even before 1993, I was verbally, emotionally and physically abused by my children's fathers. I am a mother of 6 children ages 25 to 7; 5 suns 1 daughter. My turning point d idnt come after being held at gun point, or stomped in my belly while pregnant, or hit in the face with raw pork chops, or even spit on. My aha moment came when my 14 year old asked how am I teaching his little sister to become a strong woman. 

I felt alone most days even though I was married and always had a house full of kids. Even more interesting is my mother worked for a women's abuse shelter. My family always supported me. They never pushed the issue. Would talk about the situations only if I initiated the conversation. We all know I never did. My friends supported me. I would vent. They would ride out my rants with me. I would go into seclusion because I would take him back. They knew this about me. My friends always assured me that they are my shame free zone and they understood my desire to be with him.

Was it really my hearts desire to continue to go thru this abuse? Did I really love these men more than I loved myself or my children? What was missing from my inner self that required these abusive relationships? Was I a victim? Was this my destiny? No no. No. No. No. No.

The fact is, if you are hearing this right now, you are extremely strong. Only an intelligent, strong, fearless woman could endure what you have. 

Your intelligence is so divine that for some time now you have designed a way to suffer so much abuse. Unfortunately, the way the cycle of abuse works, your intelligence only brought more abuse for outsmarting your abuser. But that didn't stop you.

You strength is so mighty that no matter how many blows, pushes and pulls, hateful words, restrictions, manipulation; you stood firm on YOUR principles: not to cuss back, hit back, but to resort to your divine intelligence to fight. Leaving you to live another day....what endurance you have.

A wombman such as you is fearless like a 

Goddess. You protected your children no matter what might have been your consequences. You are ready to walk away right now with nothing except your sanity and serenity.  

How do I know this...I am you. It takes a strong fearless intelligent wombman to withstand and walk away. At some point we lost ourselves, consciously. Subconsciously,  we went no where and are still the same person before the abuser sucked the life out of us.

The fun begins now. Remembering who you were is not a hard task for a wombman of your stature.

People often say or think that a wombman who is being abused ended up in that situation because she had low self-esteem, or lacked education, or came from a dysfunctional or abusive family. In opinion in my experience it's quite the opposite. Goddess such as ourselves are very powerful. Most men are intimidated by our independence, wisdom, and mental strength. They feel in order to make US submit, they must abuse. Or maybe it's as simple as they were abused so much that they only know how to abuse. Whatever. The truth of the matter is there is no justifiable reason. The truth is it can happen to any wombman. The truth is you ARE THE PRIZE....THE POT OF GOLD AT THE END OF THE RAINBOW(literally). You are not a constellation prize but YOU are the GRAND PRIZE. You have sooo much love that evil always tries to kill it. NO DICE!!!