Domestic Abuse Survivors Community Group
Domestic Abuse Survivors is a group for survivors and their support network to air their past and present experiences of emotional as well as physical abuse. It was established to give a forum on a subject society tends to shy away from.
I am new to this group.... I have PTSD as well as stockholm syndrome from a relationship I had with my boyfriend almost 7 years ago. ( it will be 7 years Feb. 6, 2018 ). Since then I have gained a great amount of anxiety. My thoughts are loud on the daily, and I flinch to the dumbest shit... even when I'm alone and nothing is moving.. I never lie, however I get anxiety telling the truth. The flash backs are so vivid that sometimes I really think that I'm back at that situation. A man saved me 7 years ago, and 7 years later he became the love of my life and my biggest suppprt system. I'm more nervous or resistant to deal with negative situations, eventhough my life seems to be a cluster fuck of negativity at the moment. Im also pretty resistant to say what I really want from people. It gives me enough anxiety to spread to the entire United States. I always feel like I will be shut down and belittled or be told that I'm stupid or that I dont deserve that. I deal with an abusive mother in law who thinks shes entitled to everything. She is very controlling, very selfish, and very delusional. She one of the biggest con artiat next to my abuser and she steals everything. She emotionally abused myself for 7 years until I gained the strength to tell her that I refuse to have a relationship with her. She has been abusing her son all his life, mentally, emotionally and financially. I have struggled being her Martyr for years now. I found myself almost scared of her emotionally and mentally because she mimics a lot of what my abuser does... or did to me. Anyways, my main question is how do you honestly escape all of the loud thoughts, the triggers, the vivid dreams and flashbacks, the angry blackouts, the lies and manioulations, the PTSD.... how do you escape and be free? ( if there are doctors that read this, I am looking forward to your response. If you are not a doctor and can help me please, I am looking forward to all responses.
Always with love,
Em
With hope it helps,
Ash
I'm sorry it happened.
It takes a really long time, if not your lifetime. I think by accepting that it will be that long, and you may never recover (it is a reality) you can get better in a way because then you know that you can just manage your symptoms rather than get more anxious by trying to make them disappear (which they won't entirely)
Your journey is yours and nobody can share it with you-you can't compare it to anyone else's either. It's a management of the day to day stuff rather than 'when will this all disappear?'
It's great you found a guy that can handle trauma symptoms because most cannot. I did too after years and years of being single. Stories like ours are not easy to hear by anyone...let alone a new or ongoing partner.
Just day by day sometimes!!!!