How can I explain this situation adequately? My ex is a very kind-hearted and weak man. He will do favors and kind acts for anyone, but struggles to avoid alcohol and obviously the temptation of other women. We will be divorcing this summer and have been separated over a year. Throughout that time we have remained in contact though not intimacy, daily. I've tried many times to go no contact, and it usually lasts only a few days. He is VERY sorry for what he's done and claims he will love me forever, but admits he can't promise not to hurt me again. I accept that and that's why we are divorcing. He fixes things in my house, and I help him with his paperwork.

So it's great to be able to be so friendly with the soon to be ex, right? Well the problem comes in when I find out too much about him dating. I am not 100% sure if he sees the OW, but they do still talk for sure. She makes my skin crawl. But when I find out about other women who he has met since the separation, I still get really jealous. Which is t fair since I've dated too. I think that the contact with him is stopping me from being ready to move on. I Harte to think of losing his help and friendship, but maybe it's a crutch? He's like an addiction. I start to feel sick if we don't talk for a few days, but is it really good for me? Maybe I need to force through the pain of withdrawal from him. It just feels good to think there's someone out ther who will always love me. After typing that I realize how crazy it sounds. If he loved me so much he would have been true, right? Maybe I AM the weak one!!