Well when it rains it pours. Next Friday, my stbx is getting laid off until at least Jan 5th. Hopefully he will be reinstated then, but there is no guarantee. He works in the automotive industry which is falling flat on it's face here in Michgian. He sent me an email yesterday telling me about this and that he won't be able to make the full condo payment and that I'll need to pitch in a little more. I can possibly do this, I just have to juggle another job into my schedule. I do have the time, but I'm not sure I have the stamina - I'm not 30 anymore :0

So tomorrow night we are going to get together to try and see what needs to be done to financially survive until this dilema is over. He will have to give a little and I will have to give a little and hopefully we can keep our heads above water until it passes.

I do not want to uproot my kids again when we just got settled. Plus our landlord has been so nice and I don't want to let him down.

Also, after we talk about our finances I'm going to flat out ask him about seeing a marriage couselor. I touched on this subject with him last Thursday and I think he's had enough time to give it some thought. So it's time to see what he's willing or not willing to do.

Either way, I'll be ok - I'm actually expecting him to say that he doesn't want to go to a marriage counselor. I really don't think he wants to save our marriage. He's never given me any other indication and I don't expect that to change.

We might have to put the divorce on hold for now though. How can I get any spousal support from a husband who doesn't currently have a job. I'll be totally screwed. Anyway, I'm going to suggest that he pull back $1500 from his lawyer and I'll pull back $1500 from my lawyer and put things on hold for now so we can use this money for 2 months worth of our condo payment. We'll see what he thinks about that. I'm sure he'll just tell me it's time to move again. That we're paying too much. He hasn't liked me living here from day one and now would be a good time for him to come down hard on me for the extra financial burden. I can't win.

I'm trying to look at this layoff in a positive light. God works in mysterious ways and maybe God is trying to get us to come together and work this out together like husbands and wives do. Also, I think if he has to find another job that he'll be away from the atmosphere that caused him to think it was ok to have a "friendly" relationship with another woman at work and it might help us in the long run. I know I'm grasping at straws, but what the heck, it's possible that this is all part of God's plan for us.

I'll keep you posted as to how tomorrow night turns out. I'm pretty nervous and scared about being rejected right to my face, but I'm prepared all the same. Hugs for me ;)