Fatallove,
YOU ARE NOT ALONE! WE ARE HERE FOR YOU! You are not a "burden" to any of us --- here you find friends, support, and understanding. We have been there too.

Fatallove, to be real with you, I hit bottom with depression too. I was shocked by the depth of my depression when I realized I didn't even care whether I lived or not. I would never have done anything myself, I just didn't care. The pain of my life was so intense. I was crying constantly and in bed when not at work. I isolated myself too, which doesn't help with depression. I just didn't care.

Fatallove, you don't believe it now, but you truly will not always feel this way. You have friends here. I have to say that therapy does help ALOT too. Support groups like DivorceCare help immensely. Antidepressants also have helped many of us, sometimes you have to try different ones and different doses for better effectiveness. Surround yourself with support and friends. Take care of yourself. The intense grief you feel now will eventually be part of your healing. It is unfortunately, necessary, and cannot be bypassed for recovery. You are on a difficult and painful path now, but we are here. There is light at the end.

Love and Hugs to you.
LJ

Fatallove:

We have all been so worried about you. Come back here and we will help you get through this. We have all hit bottom at some point through this hell but we got through it TOGETHER. We are here to help you cry and hug you through you pain.

Love and hugs coming your way.

Fatallove, I am so sorry you are having to go thru this. Please stay in contact with DS & your DS friends. They will get you thru this. DS & my DS friends have been and still are a lifeline for me. I have no one locally for support since my ex isolated us. So DS has literally saved my sanity and my life. LaJana mentioned DivorceCare. I also recommend Rebuilding workshops - www.rebuilding.org It's similar to DivorceCare in that you meet once a week for about 12 weeks. They also provide concurrent meetings for children. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs!!

I am fairly new here, but I hope you will consider me a friend as I know how you feel. If you have phone numbers on from on here call.... I still have my bad days, we all do. I tend to isolate myself when I spiral downward and since I am all alone anyway it doesn't help. Reach out to someone. If you want to email me I would call you. I have met some woman off the board who are in the process of divorce and although we really are strangers I talk to them and try and help. NO one would want this on anyone to hurt so much. HUGs

Fatallove, Listen to me please, I KNOW (We all know) all to well what your going through, our situations may be different but the pain and heartache is the same...Please come back, talk to us, lean on us, let us help and let us grieve with you. VERY recently, I was in a very bad place, and received more support than I could have EVER ask for. We can do this together!! We want to help, whatever I can do, whatever we can do!

We HAVE been thinking about you. Where have you been? You have to try to come here, especially now. I know too, when you're depressed you just don't want to do anything - nothing. You isolate yourself - it's comforting (it seems) but it's not good for you. You need to push, if just a little at first. Maybe your first push could be just to come here - to your friends. We need you here - you always have so much to say - and it's so helpful to all. You are in my thoughts and prayers AND you are absolutely not alone in this. I'm sure that SO many of us have gone through what you're going through. I know that I have. There is a way out - you'll get through this. LOL always.

Dear Fatallove,
Me again....... MsTerey is SO right - no one wishes the intense pain and and grief and depression on you or anyone else! You are in our thoughts and prayers! Keep coming back. More hugs, LJ

dear fatallove

i know just how you feel and we are all are with you here..
ive had so much pain, i thought i'd fold em over the last 2 years--but --no way.

he wont kill me-i survive -because i am ME- and i am strong--stronger than anyone i know.
i want you to want to be you again-and want to GET strong FOR you again.

Read my journal, it may inspire you--especially today--the day before I go into another scary risky operation-- all BECAUSE I SO damn wanna be ME and whole again too.
NOT what my ex made of our lives,

IM LIVING MY LIFE NOW FOR ME.
stand up and fight back for you DEAR.
YOU MUST.
We all must.

BIG HUGS
publishergirl.

Fatalove - you know that you have made some wonderful friends here on DS and we all care about you very much. You became part of our over 20 years family and we miss you. It hurts us all to know that you are having a hard time accepting our support and hugs when we want so much to be able to give you just that.

Never, ever feel alone. You can do this journey with our help. None of us, especially me, could have made it this far without each other. We are your friends and you must know that you can come to us with ANYTHING. You will never be a burden to us for it warms our hearts to reach out to you and give you the support, advice and love that you so need right now.

Let us carry your burden with you - many hands make easy work. Together we can accomplish anything.

We are here for you - I hope you know that - please let us help.

Love, Chrissy

Thank you all for reaching out to fatallove she will continue to need us for a time.....keep it up you are sooo great....Jack