Oh sweetie, you are doing nothing wrong at all, in fact you are doing just what you need to...I'm very proud of you for getting the help and support you need plus going to school and staying busy....don't be so hard on yourself. It's normal to have set backs, especially when you have to come in contact with him and his family. I am very close to my exs siblings as well and they have all told me that HE divorced me, THEY didn't divorce me. I see them on special occasions, just not when he is there. They are my family and always will be.

It has been just over a year since I moved out and I've been divorced for 9 months. I do well for a while and then cry my eyes out for days. I am healing though and you will too, you will notice that your down times don't last as long and aren't as intense as in the begining. Just give it....and I hate to even say it, but it's true....TIME. That doesn't ease the hurt you are feeling right at this very minute, but have hope and know that it will get better.

I'd like to share something that just happened this morning...please excuse the length.....I had 2 daughters get married last year in the midst of my divorce. I have had a very hard time looking at their wedding pictures because of the feelings of loss over my own family, but I decided to look at them this morning and found that I didn't cry, I only felt a little sad, and when I looked at my ex, I felt pity and could only shake my head in sadness and know that I did the right thing in leaving him. He'd had affairs, was abusive at times, but on the outside everyone thought we were a great family. I'm surprised that I didn't get overcome with emotion, just a bittersweet sadness---and I didn't cry!!

I tell you this, to let you know that things will get easier. You will have setbacks but each will not be as hurtful as the one before. Have hope for a great future. You are on the right track, don't get discouraged and keep hanging in there. We will hang with you and I'll keep you in my prayers. God bless you---I'm here if you need to talk.

Aw.w.w.....Lindsey, I'm so sorry that you're feeling so bad. My heart aches for you. I know that you've been separated for a couple of years now, but are you divorced or just living apart? And you reconciled in this time and he left again in July, right? I'm certainly no authority on relationship issues, but I feel pretty experienced in living in a loveless marriage. If you're not divorced and he just left you again in July I think what you're going through is what anyone would be going through right now. You really have not even reached an acceptance of whats going on and probably still am in denial. You love him very much. He left you for an OW. How do you think you're supposed to feel. It's devastating for you. I know no greater pain then having an OW in your life.

You really need to just feel what your feeling - but set goals for yourself - make a decision. Mentally make a strong decision to what your going to do - and don't look back. He just left in July - any strength that you had built is gone again. You fell of the wagon. Get back on it when your tears begin to slow down. Get out - totally out. You WILL regain your self- esteem by taking charge of your situation. He's not going to make anything better for you - so who needs him. Let him go. You are such a wonderful woman and to hear how his family just adores you makes me jealous. (I have my own story of hurt about "family"). Unless you truly take a stand in this you will never be able to move on. Please - move on. You're too precious a gift to give anyone your soul. Love you, Nancy

Are you through crying yet? Again, are you going to let that 100lb "skanky" whore and that man lower then "pond scum" ruin the rest of your day?! I sure hope not. Lots of Hugs.

What u are going through is so normal so dont worry we all have or are going through it.You fill like its never gonna end but it does,and theres nothing wrong with taking tablets if it helps,when mine left i didnt eat or sleep for about 2/3 weeks i just couldnt put anything in my mouth and when i layed down all i could see was them.So i went to the GP and he gave me sone happy pills(thats what my kids called them) they took a while to work but did kick in and within a month or 2 of taking them i was back on track.Youe made of strong stuff girl so hold in there yer your gonna have a real shit time but when thats done your life is gonna be so much better cos your be the strong 1 in control.

It's all part of the roller-coaster ride Lindsey - your up, your down, your twisted this way and that - there are good moments and bad, but the bad ones will come less and less. I think we will always have a bad moment somewhere down the line - we wouldn't be human if we didn't. We are all on this support site because we loved them, that is why we hurt. If we didn't love them, we wouldn't need DS. Because of this, we cannot just "get over it". It comes in waves - just ride it out until it's gone. Hugs to you.

It's so normal - I still have the klonipin and ambien in my drawer. I melt down once a day at least - today it was because my elder son didn't call yet again. I am no more lonely here than where I moved from yet, it seems intensified. I see my sister and her husband, I get to see my younger son - yet I cry. I am trying to take small pleasure in making my life just that - my life. They say divorce is the most disconcerting life change, and I think we can all attest to that - nothing about it is easy - especially if we have children. But you are one tough woman, and I know you can make it - we can all make it - and they say that crying releasees endorphins and is as good for you as laughing - so cry and cry some more - and I have faith that the crying will stop some day for all of us. You can do it. We can do it.