i''ve been having a very tough time of it lately...can't get a job, out of money, living in cheap motels paid for by my sister, my car needing $1000 worth or emissions work....and i had to give up my babies. i gave them to my son to care for, in the hopes that he would do so and give them back to me when i get back on my feet. i haven't really had any contact with him in 2 years, at his request so i wasn't sure if he would even take them. but, he did. and he has allowed me to come visit them and promised he will give them back to me whenever i am ready.

it has broken my heart not having them with me these past couple of weeks. sadie is a sweet, gentle, very shy little girl. i am the only person she has ever willingly allowed to hold her, the only person she has ever trusted. of course i feel that i have abandoned her. but, she did live with my son (and me) for several years, so i figured she would be more likely to adapt there than anywhere else.

zeus is a tough little guy who knows how to get what he wants. when he wants attention, he just jumps in your lap and says "pet me". he'll place his little head under your hand until it fits just right and you can't help but scratch, rub, and pet him. he's feisty (thinks he's a doberman rather than a chihuahua), and takes no guff from my son's husky. although he does allow her to wash his face, but he grrrrs at her the whole time.

i saw them today for the first time since i left them with him and it was so nice. it was like coming home. sadie ran up the stairs to me as soon as she heard my voice, placed her hands on my leg, and said "pick me up momma." zeus was at the door, jumping into my arms. even sasha got into the act, leaning up against me, licking my face raw.

i know i have done what is best for my babies, they are in a safe place where their needs are being met. i will be going inpatient this weekend to try to get my life in order and, obviously, they couldn't come with me. although i think i would feel better if they could.

i'm not sure why i am writing this. i guess just to make sure that everyone remembers how much our pets really mean to us. love them every day and let them know it.
hugs and puppy kisses