Hi guys. I don't know if this is the best place to post this, but it relates to cutting and I suppose I just need to get this off my chest. See, I don't cut for the same reason that most people do. I don't have suicidal thoughts, very little past pain or trauma that I need an outlet for, etc. My issue is of an entirely different nature. I cut myself because I have an overwhelming compulsion to drink blood, and since I can't get it from anyone other than myself, well... I've seen my condition described as "Renfield Syndrome" and while it's not an officially recognized mental disorder, it's the closest thing I've found to describe what I deal with. Apparently this disorder is extremely rare. I don't have some delusion that I'm a vampire and I am definitely not a member of any "vampire communities" or anything like that. My blood craving is overwhelming sometimes, though, and I end up cutting myself just to get that taste in my mouth. I get a sick little thrill when I go to work with a bandage on my arm and nobody knows why it's there. 

Anyway, I just wanted to tell somebody. I worry about what my friends or coworkers would think if they knew the truth. I worry that I'm going to seriously injure myself accidentally. I even worry that I might start feeling an urge to harm other people to get what I want. I waver between being disgusted with myself and getting a weird kind of high over what I think of as my dark little secret. I have no doubt that I am pretty mentally ill. 

I promise I'm not trying to troll. I am being completely honest, and while I don't expect anyone to be able to help me. Just being able to type this out and get it out there is a huge relief. Thanks for listening.