Compulsive gambling recovery Community Group

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assisi147 09/20/2017

Hi everyone!..after a while I'm back writing because I just want to stop this horrible and evil addiction. I'm here now sitting in my car in the casino parking lot after another terrible 3 hours of gambling and a lost of 1200$. I just came to the terms that if I don't stop I will destroy my life or even worse...KILL MYSELF. I'm a good hard-working person who before encounter this stupid addiction was so responsible with money..always willing to help family and friends and now I CAN'T BELIEVE!! I'm deep in debts(credit cards all max out...personal loans to pay off..casino line of credits all max out...) and of course an empty checking account. I feel so depress and lonely now..I just going to drive home to spend another sleepless night.. and I don't want to see this casino parking lot anymore. LOVE YOU ALL

itsjustmeagain 09/21/2017

YOU WILL BE OK...I promise, take a breath, go home SHOWER, take a long walk, lay down and put on some calming music, or better yet, i do the hypnosis tapes on utube, to start rewiring my brain

do anything to keep your mind off of it....the last two times i gambled, i did 600 and 600 = 1200 total for the week....that number plays in my head over and over 1200....what i could of done w/it...ughghghghg....but in the whole scope of things...its only money...you need to save your life, money will come and go.....and you will recoup...but your peace of mind you may not be able to get back if you cont.....stick around...read, do your journal...breathe.......you are no diff then the 10000 of people who are afflicted w/this insanity, you are not alone

god bless

yong 09/22/2017

I have been playing the slots for 5 years and i think i lost around 20kusd already but when i stop i recover my savings the only problem is i relapse every once in a while and feel guilty about losing money, but its probably normal for gambling addicts like us, we just have to keep trying not to be suck in again. Im only able to go to the casino on weekends because of work but im gonna try not to go there tomorrow because i know ill just loose some more like i lost 600usd the other week. I lost 1500usd in total on 3 separate weekends on the slots after 2 months of not going... but im still going to try not to relapse again dude so hang in there youre not alone

assisi147 09/22/2017

thank you itjustformeagain and yong!!..I'm trying hard in the last 2 days to relax and thinking positive...but I have to confess that its hard when I think about the amount of debts I accumulated on the last 4 years just because of gambling...because im my everyday life I always been responsible when it comes to pay bills and work...BUT WHEN I STEP IN THAT SMOKY..NASTY BUILDING CALL CASINO I JUST LOSE MY MIND AND COMMON SENSE. Thanks always for your support...and after this lesson I really will try to changemy life.

itsjustmeagain 09/23/2017

its a battle, but one that is worth it, your mind is playing tricks w/you and your levels of dopamine are out of whack, just like a drug addict, its not technically your fault you go back, you crave it, you have to go somewhere and get help, try GA, church, volunteering....you need to replace it, w/something otherwise, you'll go nuts...

staywithme 02/05/2018

Hi, I can understand what you are going through. There have been to many times I left the casino with not a penny in my purse. I drop 300.00 to 1000 easy.
I have not a penny in any of my checking accounts. I have depleted my annuities and I'm broke. Every time I say I'm going to quit tomorrow it never happens. I have good intentions but this gambling has over powered me and I feel so hopeless at times. I try to replace it with some of my hobbies. It doesn't work for me. I get so depressed and have thoughts of suicide but never acted on it. I love and hate the casinos. I also do a lot of scratch offs

It would be nice to here from you again.

itsjustmeagain 02/05/2018

we are here for you...

deliaberg88 02/21/2018

I feel your pain,
I filed bankrupcy a year ago, removing my debt , going to couseling, teilling my children and family. New beginning,
I have relapsed and I still have no debt, i forgive and love myself.
there is such strength and help on this website.

you are not alone,
reach and reach high, you are so worth it,

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