Pia melody states the first 18 months of recovery are the hardest ain’t that the truth .  I just hit the 18 month mark in March . What changes have you guys seen in your journey ?

i have been able to build a sense of self , set effective boundaries , build up my self esteem to a reasonable level  , get in touch with my feelings . Deal with abandonment and rejection issues from my past and childhood . Learn to put myself first and manage healthy toxic guilt , with my own work and the help of counselling . 

I still I’ll struggle with shame issues , routine ,  self esteem issues at times and I can get triggered but I am a lot more mindful . Obviously recovery is not all black and white there are many things to learn ,practice and to grow and old patterns can be fallen into any time . 

I do suffer from anxiety which can range from mild to severe , but I know it is a sign that change is needed !