Clarity Community Group

This group originally had been formed to lend support and to have open discussion on the topic of dissociation. We have since opened up to all aspects of PTSD, BPD, DID, BIP, Depression, etc. Basically our group is a safe supportive (non judgemental) place for open discussion on any somewhat related topic. We do not discriminate. We consider ourselves to be...

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insecure 02/02/2011

On one hand I so don't want to be here on this fucking earth... but on the other hand I continue to show up in therapy... continue my volunteer work take care of my grandchildren and keep Dr. appointments. so what the hell am I thinking? I really do on a very conscious level want to end this thing they call life... I just can't seem to .. perhaps I haven't made that peace yet! So I sit forever contemplating Death once again and not quite sure once again WTH and WtF!!!!!

deleted_user 02/02/2011

I often wonder the same thing. I decided last week to stop with the dr apts. I am going to my therapy just because I need some type of support. My Shrink knows my actions are those of one who intends to die. he has suggested hospital however I refuse. They can not force you to take meds in there or eat so it would be just the same as I am doing at home. Never ever does the thought of death and dying leave my mind. I have no fupport system. I think If i had grand kids to take care of I may feel differently yet I do not have that option. HGS TO YOU HON>

RaeFx 02/02/2011

Hi girlfriends. Although I am not currently in the same place that you are, I have myself found life undoable. I just want to tell you both how much I care. I love and support you. I wish I could ease your pain.

Hugs

deleted_user 02/03/2011

I care too..............

((((((((((((( HUGS )))))))))))))))

deleted_user 02/04/2011

More care and love coming your way. It's a very hard way to live. I've been there (recently!). I just try to take pleasure in little things like music, coffee, naps, chocolate, and soap operas. It's not cure-all that's for sure. I know your pain is very real. Just sending you hugs and letting you know that I hear you both.

blackdog999 02/04/2011

Well, I think you are experiencing suicidal ideation personally. I have had this myself.......

So, you are suicidal but also conversely you have no intention of killing yourself on some levels
but also you are suicidal

I have been there mate totally

its really weird

i dont know why it comes or what it wants

but after a time i got used to it

i still get it now

when it comes i just say suicidal thoughts

nice to see you again

and we hang out for awhile and then they go

i'm in charge of this body

me

you are incharge of your body

thats it. i think actually its quite common and not as bad as we think when we are having it. just hang in there and wait...relax and let go.....

talk to it.....

talk to the others

talk to yourself

all loving caring relaxed talking

i love you ya know xxxxxxxxxx

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