On one hand I so don't want to be here on this fucking earth... but on the other hand I continue to show up in therapy... continue my volunteer work take care of my grandchildren and keep Dr. appointments. so what the hell am I thinking? I really do on a very conscious level want to end this thing they call life... I just can't seem to .. perhaps I haven't made that peace yet! So I sit forever contemplating Death once again and not quite sure once again WTH and WtF!!!!!
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