Well, I can certainly relate to what you are saying. Sometimes I think I try too hard. And it is depressing ... so you're not alone.

Insecure sometimes we can't control what we feel no matter how hard we try and that's a fact.
Some people might argue it different but this is my opinion and I am sticking to it.
I think there are things you can do to help try and nudge things along, like exercise because it increases your Endorphines. I know it's hard to thing of doing when you are depressed because everything hurts physically not just emotionally.
People cannot dictate how you should feel, it's your course to ride out at your own pace as long as you are trying to do the right things to improve when you can. I don't know if you take a mood stabilizer or an anti depressant but if not it might be an idea, I know for myself I have no chance in hell of trying to control my moods without one. I have tried for many years and nothing worked when chemistry is against you.
Mood stabilizer works better because it will even help with the aggravated frustrated days.

I also think the therapy you started is a huge step in the right direction, you will learn how to get some of that pain out for good, and learn new coping skills to help retrain the way you thing hen you start feeling depressed. :)

did all this start when your husband died, or did you get these depression episodes before that?
When my mom died, I cried almost non stop for a year, and was depressed for over a year and did nothing but drink. I give you credit because you try to improve this whereas I did not. You will get better woman =)
xxoo

I agree with Sini, getting help is the first step, therapy is an important part of a lager plan. I also need my mood stabilizers, without them, my emotions, and mood would be out of control. It's taken years to get this far, and I'm not done yet. It gets exhausting, but I ain't giving up. Glad your here, looking for help, and venting when you need to, among friends. Love, hugs and blessings :o)

Too depressed??? NO WAY!!! I do believe thats what the group is for. I havent been in therapy in 10 months or so. I have an appt on the 27th, i need it again. I dont go on a regular basis, i cant afford it. I cant see going when im feeling fine. If i didnt have my meds, like Ian, id be out of control & suicidal.

We all need a place to vent, cry, bitch, complain etc... Thats what we are here for.

Love ya
Cathy

I agree with Cathy. There is no such thing as too depressed for Clarity. That's what we're here for. And we all understand how you feel because we're struggling with it ourselves. Lots of love...

I can totally relate and no I dont think you are too depressed for this group. I have been where you are right now and will probably be there again one day!!

I dont know why it comes or what it bloody wants Insecure all I know from experience is if you wait long enough it fucks off and bugs someone else for a bit giving you chance to clean up and get some shopping in before the next wave hits

good luck, hang in there and keep talking. i like you if it counts for anything xx

too depressed? no way!
I am so glad that you are here. I cannot imagine our group without you insecure.
You have been such a great friend....we are here for one another.

love you much!

Love and hugs as well! Your a great friend. Blessings, Ian.