You have to find place, person, and time to release your trauma energy that is stored in your body.

You've been hurt so badly emotionally.

Finding peace is so important. Also chemical imbalances play a big part. It must be nice to be normal, and go through life without a care in the world. I'm not normal, but I do feel, perhaps more than someone who would be considered normal. I feel that I care more, love more, cry more, have more compassion. I have to look at the good sides of my condition. Love & hugs. Ian.

Ian made a good point, people who wake up and just flow through life miss out me thinks. it's like being raised with a lot of money and not seeing how lucky you are...until you lose it all. People like us gain and then lose it all over and over again....We appreciate the good and simple things when they come and I honestly believe that's a huge importance in life.
When I start digging onto any of my PTSD issues insecure, I become a huge baby and I want to just hide under the bed. I myself have only been doing therapy for a year now, but I see a small improvement. And from that i just think of what it will be like even 5 years from now, I think I will have an easier time with things.
And if not my therapist better run for her fucking life !
na just joking, I love her lol =)

just trying to say, I don't think things will ever be perfect I know enough to be practical about it. But I think I can have a better quality of life than I do now, and to be honest things right now are much better than a year ago when I break it all down and really look at the changes. i just realized more things are better than I thought hehe

love when you get those WOAH moments hehe
Clarity :)

I agree :o)

just sending you love and support -- that's all I'm good for right now. I don't have anything wise to say. But I can send hugs and wish you a peaceful sleep.