My name is Joseph, in ten years I've been through at least 2-4 doctors a year for having chronic pain, that is mostly diagnosed why I hurt. Because I have Medicaid my state has stopped paying for pain clinics or any specialists that will not just address my pain but the issues causing it as well. Once again I'm cut off from the only thing that makes the unbearable pain only a little better for not showing enough improvement, I was gas lighted for hours by my old doctor who treated me no different then the last doctor before her who kept telling me to kill myself for being so useless. The amount of pain I'm in cannot be put into words, and the cause there is no surgeries for with my insurance or even non narcotic medications and alternative treatments.

the pain alone has become life threatening as my heart is at near failure from the stress of the pain alone. Having BP that exceeds 180/133 on a regular basis that cannot be controlled by BP Medications doesn't even get me emergency room care they never admit me or even triage me.

now that I have nothing for the pain again I have said my goodbyes knowing I will not survive this.