I understand oh so well! I want to run away most of the time myself. Unfortunally we can't run from our minds! Know that there is a lot of support here. Gold bless you.

It hurts because you love. I never knew my heart could hurt so bad. I can't believe the one I love the most could rip my heart out. She has to be hurting too. I can't believe she could love me so much at one time and not love me anymore. There's something she's dealing with that must make her feel guilty to see me.
PRAY PRAY PRAY and trust that someday there will be an answer.

Keep praying, take care of you, it does get better!

Welcome to CPEAC - many of us have felt the devastation you are going through.

I am sorry that you are here because of estrangement. I wish there was a magic answer, but don't think there is.

There will always be reminders, which cause us to be sad for a time, but the main thing is to take care of YOU. We have no control over our EC, regardless of the situation. They are adults and are free to make their own decisions. Most of them are wrong decisions because they are running away from the problems but we must let them go. In time they may wake up and return but we have to carry on in the meantime. There have been many on this site whose children have been gone for various times (some for months and some for years) who have reconciled. Just keep in mind that should they EC return, future relationships would be different and yet, sometimes for the better. Hopefully they would be for the better because both EC and you will have grown through the process.

You are extremely hurt and it is normal to miss your EC and what was. It is important that you take care of yourself. Keep posting your feelings and thoughts. It really helps to get it out and have others input and support to know how they have dealt with things.

Hopefully, your childen will wise up and realize what he/she has missed or thrown away. We can't force it.

Just take care of yourself, find things and people that you enjoy. You miss your e/c, but not the bad behavior, right? Take one day at a time, baby steps, and move on with your life. Hopefully, e/c will come back when the time is right. We just can't force it. Yes, they have to realize that family is important but only God knows when that will be.

You will find the support here to help you through this pain you are going through. You are not alone in this. Stick with us and you will uncover a lot wisdom from those who have walked down the same path you are on and you will find a great deal of strength to move on with your life.

God Bless,
GuelMom

you so right have take care yourself what helped me was read about co dependency helped me recognise toxicity and while he moved out allowed me think what wanted most was to stop pain we had with him left was able move forward it doesnt mean we dont love him or us

We greive for what could have been and should have been since I, firmly, believe living in peace and harmony is God's plan for families based on His word. God can restore and we know that Nothing is impossible for Him.

I appreciated GuelsMom's words's of wisdom saying "In the meantime, we must carry on". We can only carry on with God's help, one day at a time. He will bring healing to our souls. This support group is a special place to be as we seek to heal and "carry on".

God bless us all.