For years now I have tried to help my middle child straighten out her life. The involvement with drugs and poor choices of men as well as friends was a never ending cycle. In and out of prison and jail for the last 5 yrs. took it's toll on me. I have been raising her child and am currently going for full custody. I tried to help her get on her feet many,many times to no avail. She got off parole in Feb. and I really hoped she would get her act together and try to get stable so she could get her daughter back someday. today I found out that she was using again. She will not do anything to help herself and I am terrified that she will end up dead. Over the years I have done everything I can think of to save her but nothing has worked, so I now have to concentrate on my grandchild. Today I am handing her over to the Lord. I had to get to the point of throwing up my hands and saying "okay Lord she's your, thy will be done" It was the hardest thing for a parent to do, because we want to make everything better. I will pray everyday for her, but I have to accept whatever God chooses to do and sometimes it is a scary thing, but I have to keep reminding myself to remain strong in my faith. May the Lord watch over her and keep her from harm.
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