I've had dreams about being in heaven. When I was in my thirties I dreamt of a wide, shining river and all along the banks were hoards and hoards of people singing, "I Am So Glad that Jesus Loves Me." The song kind of dates me, I know - Oh well. I also dreamt about heaven another time, of waking up lying next to a bamboo shade and feeling the breeze on my face..nothing hurt any more, I was not anxious any more.

The reason I so look forward to heaven is, though, actually seeing Jesus face-to-face, seeing the love in his eyes and finally knowing that I AM accepted, not damned as I've heard over and over through the years from my parents. I also look forward to my parents coming up to me and saying, "We didn't know what we were doing to you all those years! Please forgive us!"

I won't have the weight of this sin and guilt on my shoulders any more. I won't be mentally ill any more. I'll finally be able to BELONG because I'll be HOME.

I REALLY DON'T THINK WE CAN EVEN IMAGINE HOW BEAUTIFUL IT WILL BE.

If i make it to heaven, I know I will see all of my pets who passed. They will live with me. My house will be filled inside and out with animals as I am an animal lover. Animals that are "wild" here will be there, too. I imagine squirrels, deer, rabbits, etc, everything. Lots of fountains. All of my family will get along, no more fighting, and we'll live next to each other. I'll suffer no more pain, physical or emotional. I imagine weightlessness kind of feeling in my heart, no worries. I think you'll have lots of celebrations and feasts to celebrate being together.

I GUESS THAT IF I DIDN'T KNOW EVERYTHING THE INSTANT THAT I GOT UP THERE, THEN I WOULD HAVE QUESTIONS: LIKE IS MY DAD HERE? AM I GOING TO HEAR "WELL DONE GOOD AND FAITHFUL SERVANT" OR "GET YOUR ASS IN HERE, ROB?" YES, I REALLY THINK ABOUT THAT ALL THE TIME. DID I CHOOSE THE RIGHT PATH EVERYTIME, OR HOW WOULD MY LIFE HAD BEEN DIFFERENT IF I MADE DIFFERENT CHOICES.(KIND OF LIKE THE BUTTERFLY EFFECT) WHEN DID I REALLY GET WRITTEN IN THE LAMB'S BOOK OF LIFE? WAS IT WHEN I THOUGHT IT WAS ON 4/7/93 OR AT SOMEPOINT DID I DO ENOUGH GOOD THINGS TO MAKE IT. I WANT TO LOOK DOWN ON MY LIFE AND GET THE PLAY BY PLAY FROM THE MIND OF GOD. WHEN WERE YOU UP THERE SCREAMING NO, NO, NO, OR YEAH ROB GO FOR IT. I ALWAYS WONDER WHAT GOD "REALLY" THINKS ABOUT ME, AND THE RAHRAH GOD LOVES ME THIS I KNOW. I WANT TO HEAR GOD SAY, "ROB, YOU REALLY BLEW IT HERE, BUT I DID THIS IN YOUR LIFE HERE TO MAKE UP FOR IT AND GET YOU BACK ON THE PATH THAT I WANTED YOU ON." I WANT TO KNOW WHY HE DIDN'T PUT A LOCKED GATE OR A GUARD DOG AROUND THE TREE OF KNOWLEDGE. AND HERE I AM WANTING TO KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT THE MIND AND HEART OF GOD. I JUST WANT TO HAVE A ONE ON ONE SESSION WITH GOD AND HIS SON, JESUS TO REALLY FIND OUT WHAT IS WHAT IN THIS WORLD DIRECTLY FROM THE HORSE'S MOUTH SO TO SPEAK.

THE BIBLE IS VERY BROAD, AND I WOULD JUST LIKE FOR THE THOUGHTS OF GOD AND JESUS TO BE PERSONALIZED TO ME, AND WHAT I COULD HAVE DONE DIFFERENT OR BETTER WITH MY LIFE.

THEN...

I'LL GET TO ALL THE WORSHIP AND BOWING AND HALLEHLUIA MUMBOJUMBO.

I JUST WANT TO GET REAL AND NOT THE CLICHES OF BIBLE VERSES OR CHRISTIAN SONGS.

I agree with dede, we can't imagine how beautiful it will be!! I am looking forward to being greeted with open arms from loved ones whom I've known, and also from those that I've never met. And seeing God? That is the most glorious thought of all!!!