So a little backstory. I had my first boyfriend when i waz 17. We were best freinds throughout high school and he was my first everything. He went away to florida for college and and i cheated on him with a co worker. I broke uo with and just slept around. Eventually i fell in love with random hook ups. I was singke for 5 years and then i met my current boyfriend. He is literally everything i could want snd hope for and i love him dearly. Ive told him about my past (the cheating and the hookups) and he hasnt judged me for it at all. Weve been together for almost a year and i love him dearly....but ive thought about cheating a lot more then i care to admit. Ive gone on websites and posted ads looking for sex....ive flirted with current co workers.....ive contacted past flings so sexy talk at night. But in the back of my head i know if i did go through with the act i would feel terrible. But the temptation is so close to getting the best of me that i dont know what to do.