My boyfriend of the last 3 years cheated on me when I moved out of the country for higher studies. I came to know about it from his then partner who called me. She told details about their meetings and their sexual activities. He said he did not want to be with her anymore and that he wanted to be with me. But also said that I was responsible for his cheating. I am a rude person who lacks compassion for other human beings. In reality, I like to not show others that I am weak. I talk with confidence, am bold and believe in being honest at all times. I needed someone who would understand me and understand my behavioral peculiarities. I trusted him blindly and though we were a 100% compatible emotionally. But it seems I was wrong. I asked him to tell me in details what he did with her as this would bring me closure and help s start over again. However, he gets angry and frustrated with me and says that I gain pleasure by making him feel bad. I know the answer, in this case, would be to move ahead in life and be with someone else. But what do you do when you are overly attached to someone? you believe you will never find true love. I feel that men, in general, want sex, lust, and attraction over a truly meaningful relationship. It has been over a month since the incidence. I am still broken. I have retracted socially and mentally i feel alone, depressed, suicidal at times. Help me.