Cheaters Anonymous Community Group
This is a support group for cheating spouses looking for understanding and strength. Betrayed spouses are welcome to post ONLY if they can do so in a supportive manner (no bashing...these posts will be deleted), and please do not comment on 'Cheaters Only' posts.
When I needed help the most not one single comment except for one !!!!! I thought this was a fucking support group!! Yes, I relapsed! I'm not doing this for attention! I really needed help and nobody was there! My therapy appt. Was cancelled Tuesday due to weather and I came here for help instead! I have texted him back again after I had ended it!! He came to see me at work today! I work and live only a few miles from his house for heavens sake!!! Now I'm back in hell!!! How am I going to ever end this! Oh please God don't let me go to his house or even text him back!!! I feel obligated to stay in contact since I started it again!! I'm in hell on earth!! This addiction has ruined me from the inside out!!!
Just a thought- you may want to start a journal and post in there. Most of us do that almost daily, and our friends here comment and give us the support we need on our journals.
What that also does is free up the forum for group discussions about general things.
You'll find lots of success with the journaling I think.
I hope you are ok. Take care and remember to look after and forgive yourself.
Like, Stuckfast said, make some friends on DS of people that may resonate in what they said or may be in similar situations and journal. Keep your journal private to just your friends and they will comment.
Its also an excellent tool to look back and see where you were and what has helped in the past.
Also find some tools that may work for "in the moment" temptation. Personally, I read the boards....over and over again. Sometimes I put down my phone and computer and started to clean out drawers. CloverMoon once told me get out of the house.....take a walk, take a run, go to the mall.
Another thing, is this IS an addiction. No one said it was going to be easy. You made a mistake. A mistake is a lesson not a loss, it is a detour not a dead end. Learn from it. What happened that day? Do something else. The majority of us here have relapsed, I believe. But.....as long as you are trying...you are the right path. Today is a new day.
Also, "I feel obligated to stay in contact since I started it again". You do not owe him anything. You only owe to yourself to heal and work through this this torment in your head. Again, today is a new day.
I promise you the turmoil you are feeling today and right now....dissipates...but it takes time....no one said this is easy.
And shore... I too find I am relying heavily on this site... for several reasons